30. Time for this blog to be updated.....

Sooo as i think u might have noticed i've been extremely lazy and unproductive in what comes to running this blog. I have no excuses.

And i had this wonderful idea of showing off all this cool stuff i've bought during last 3 months or so, but i just got an inspiration out of the blue and just had to get this post done :___D anyway, i've got a deadline approaching next morning (the report which i've barely started), so i dont use time to take any new pictures now. As it's been so long, i just write anything that comes to my mind that i've been up to lately!! Please enjoy.

So it's been nearly a month. Which means a lot of action, a lot lazying around and a lot of school. I've been quite unsocial, to be honest, and the nights spent out sitting in a pub discussing basic stuff and politics might not be the ones you're particularly interested in :D

Well as i said i went sky diving!! It's probably been the most amazing thing in this month!! but it really was amazing O.O" I mean, i was scared to death and shitting myself when the plane took off, but it was worth it :__D

We took a bus to this military base in 90 minutes drive away from Kingston, it was somewhere near Stonehedge (apparently u could've seen it up from the air but i didnt know that before it was too late XD). The journey started 6:30 saturday morning, but i slept for the whole time so it was ok. The ppl were amazing and the atmosphere in society was great. I think it helped we all were in the same situation and gonna do something none of us had done before, so it was easy to bond :33

First we had this ground training for 6 hours, they told us how to jump (the landing pattern, rigth jumping position etc) and how to change to the spare canopy in case the main one wouldn't work... it seems 1 in every 700 has a malfunction so we just had to hope and pray it wouldn't be any of us :_D on that day we couldn't jump (it was dark when we finished), so we headed back to leave our stuff in the barracks where we were supposed to sleep that night, in sleeping bags with tens of rndm ppl.

The most amazing part of the trip, at least for me, comes next. We walked back to the jumping centre, and the stars just...... lsdjlksajld *www* it was the most beautiful starry sky i've ever seen in my life, just left me breathless. We could see the milky way and all these fancy star-figures i couldn't recognise. Then we went to bar and had a great night there, but at some point during the night me and some guys went out and just looked to the space and into the stars, we were all a bit drunk so it all seemed even more amazing than before, we talked about life and i seriously was wondering why i'm studying politics when there's the whole amazing sky above us and ppl seem so small and meaningless.. Then there was a shooting star. Whooooommm. The perfect night created.

the training place

some bad-ass military plane *www*

this was the baby we jumped from~ (see the sexy coveralls we used<3)

sky full of jumpers~

going to the plane

hahahaha this happened when we went back to the pub after having seen the shooting star, all amazed by the beauty of the galaxy... this dude drinking beer from a shoe. welcome to england.

oh god it was so beautiful on the jumping morning ;; but cold, see the snow on the roof tops!!

then this plane because u just have to love planes and it's so top gun B)

then there are us in the plane...

...aaaand off we go!!

Then what have i been doing...? I've made some new friends and been to movies and stuff like that but i think that's it :__D pretty boring things lately.... BUT OH WAIT!

I did do something. This saturday i went to see jason mraz at the O2 arena!! It was quite extempore, i only booked the tickets the night before the show hehe. I really love his music and lyrics, but i didnt have any bigger expectations for the gig, however, i can say it made it to the TOP5 of all the lives i've ever been to, and i've been to some real kick-ass concerts so thats pretty well :DD

Though, it was pretty lonely there :___D the whole place was full of couples from every continent, nearly all the songs and speeches were about love on some level and there even was a proposal during the concert.... then there was me, awkwardly trying to enjoy the night amongst all those lovers. Well there was two empty seats right behind me and it gave me some hope; i kept on imagining it was booked by some couple who had had a terrible brake-up just before the night and now were crying their eyes off somewhere... Might be horrible, but we dont know if that was what had happened for real so i can keep my vision :_D

Note to self: do not go to these kinds of events on the days when you feel alone and miss someone.

outside

and in.

had a good view

Goooood it looked so wonderful when all these ppl were holding their phones up to the music ;; these kind of moments i really feel the awesomeness of the life

But musically and on every other level it was amazing and gets the iruze-approves stamp. Go if u have a chance and like his music.

Yepp. Then here's a perfect metaphor about the kind of life i lived in november....

Drinking my tea from this on computer....

...on the table that looks like this...

...in this mess i call my room. Mom, if u read this i do apologise.

Kingston Christmas market :33

On my way to school, leaves everywhere.

hahaha ok one day i went to walk around this cemetary, it's located _right _next to _our halls. you can see the building in the end of that path. im sure i couldn't sleep if i had a room facing this way just saying..

the clayhill cat :333 he lives on the campus and belongs to no-one so i took him up to keep me some company, he was so needy and happy to get some love ;;<3

hahaha then earlier today there was this incident when i passed the fire extinguisher.... it just fell from the wall and the alarm went off. now it's left this way.. for our luck we eat a lot of pizza in this flat and are lazy to clean so we had some pizza boxes we could use. i dont know if i should laugh or cry. i really should try and be more hardworking.

Also, sorry for the lack of self-pictures lately, next post will consist of them i promise. But while waiting here u have one! I dont prove-read this post to save some time this time, so please ignore the possible typos!! Oh, and happy December~ :33

27. Long time no post - greetings from London

Sooo, it's been like.. five months? Anyway a long time's passed since the last post, so sorry for that! I havent just felt like writing, or those times I did I just lacked the motivation and the longer it's been the harder it got to start so... ;___D 

But now we're here~ I'm glad if there's still ppl out there following >,<"

Long story short: after the Seoul trip (see the last post from May) I stayed at friend's house in Osaka, just for a few days and cuz it was my first time in Kansai I made some day trips and went to see Kyoto and Nara, alone. Had a great time and back in Tokyo the last two weeks were quite busy, I went out a lot, met some friends and so on. . . Well on 15th, then, I returned to Finland and started working right away. The summer was busy as hell, but at the same time things couldn't have gone better!!

I worked, at McDonalds (the one on the Mannerheimintie in Forum) and then in August I also took part in a medical research that ran through the whole month, we had to go there 4 times and stay overnight, then in the morning we had to inhale some asthma medicine and give blood for the tests. I dont love needles but they paid pretty well, i got like 800 euros only for that, so it was worth it B)) at the same time i continued cleaning on weekends and did a few afternoon shifts on my mom's work place, so some weeks were pretty hard to organize, but well, i diiiid it. And i really needed to get all the money possible for this Autumn!!

Yep, so i'm sitting in my own small room right now, i live in the halls at the university, so we're 4 ppl sharing the flat. I like my room actually, it's the third floor so the view is nice and no-one can see in heha, i also get some sports done while running up and down the stairs. Plus we only share the kitchen so i have my own bathroom and all~

I don't remember how much i told about the courses i applied to, but in the end i decided for Kingston University that's right next to London, or actually this is a part of Greater London, but Kingston upon Thames is a small town so I dont actually feel like i'd live in London. By train it's only about 20 minutes so it's really close tho!! Aaand about the course, it's a three-years BA course in Drama and International Relations, so basically I study both subjects 50/50, Monday and Tuesday I have my IR lectures and from Wednesday to Friday I'm studying drama.

I can tell more later, the meaning of this post was just to tell you im still alive and kicking, and that im gonna keep on running this blog :DD yey! I'm too lazy to clean my room and take proper pictures right now (it looks horrrrrible in here, i have to jump and make acrobatics just to get to the window and table....), so i'll just put here one i sent home before~

I'll give you some more in the future ;D this doesnt yet have all my personal stuff so it looks kinda cold..

I haven't yet decided what to write in the next post, but if you have any ideas, just speak out and i can tell about the things you want!! Again, sorry for not having updated even once during the summer :__D But i hope you guys enjoyed ur holidays etc, now lets try to work hard this autumn!!!

aaaa im so glad i got this done, feel so great for updating again (  ^,^) u'll here about me soon, it's a promise now ok!!

24. Kapibara-san and a trip to Korea

Yesterrrrrday was great~<3

I made it out of house after the flu and it was nearly 20 degrees o(*,*)O' went to visit the school again with my ex area rep, she had to be there with her new exchange student and her host family~ it was so very nostalgic to listen how the principal told about the clubs and bunkasai and school trip and all :DD

They also took the sizes of the school uniforms for the two students and we waited in the school store (yep our school has its own store, there were even aoyama gakuin hello kittys O.O" i bought three pens and a hand towel ;3), i talked with the new teacher for an hour or so about how the world has become crazy and about the money situation etc, freedom and human rights... So i guess im a better person now haha

a boring-me-to-death look but i slept in late and had to run >,<

from the school shop!!

Annnnnnywayyy, after the school part we had a lunch with my area rep (soe-san from now on) and her son's wife who is now staying at their place because she has a 7-months-old baby and her own parents work so it's easier that way, it was some fancy sobayasan in omotesando. They were planning a trip to Thailand on Golden Week so we also went to the travel agency to book the right trip with the guided sightseeing and stuff, as you may know japanese love those kind of things..... I even heard there are Europe trips with 4 countries where you stay 2 days in each and see EVERYTHING with super schedule and then are dead in the end of each day ;__D but many ppl only book the travel with flights and hotel, so that there will be a guide that takes everyone to the hotel and after that you're on your own. Many times you might spare some money with those kind of 'package-trips'.

So what i had forgotten to announce here is, that i booked a trip to Korea about a month ago!! I'll fly from Osaka to Seoul on 30th April, and then come back to Japan on 7th May. Gonna be so greatttttttt~ The flights are from osaka, so after having returned to Japan i thought id also check out kansai a bit before returning to tokyo!! have never been there before, so will be interesting!! So it would be two weeks of travelling around and having some crazy time alone, and then back to Finland on 16th May.

At first i really didnt have any purpose to travel, but then i found this amazing blog that gave me some inspiration and made me wanna travel so badly, to take everything from these 3 months. So i booked the flights from the korean cheap flight company (that's the reason you cant go from tokyo) and a friend that made her exchange to korea told me a great youth hostel in the seoul center in the best place possible, or that's what she says, i dont have the slightest idea of anything that has something to do with korea, so it will be fun to see how it differents from japan! I have this image that koreans are more lively and vibrant, and the language sounds so exotic, i love it!! i wonder if i should learn the hangul marks before going hmmm.

So that's the news from here! One of the other reasons of taking off is that lately i've become more and more sure i'll go to kingston to study that fucking expensive course, so once i'll be there i wont have any money to travel for a while! So now i'll just have to take every opportunity i have, and yeah, it's much cheaper to travel to asia from here than from finland. I only paid 250 euros for the flights, and the hostel will be about 80 euros for a week, including breakfast O.O cheap!!

Yesterday i just got some travelling fever (i dont know if you can say that in english?!?) in that travel agency, and the wife of soe-san's son was kind and gave me a guide book, so i guess i should start planning a bit :DD 7 days of seoul!! i want to meet some friends too, so i hope you'll make have some time for me then ;) be prepared for giving me some guidance~

Oh i also got an invitation for dinner some day and an old phone she didnt need anymore that you can WATCH TELEVISION WITH ;__;<3<3 god bless you-i-dont-remember-your-name-but-yeah and your baby (  ´,`)~

some korean beer we got from the travel agency!! how kind :3

the phone and the guide book from the year 2000 but well the gesture was kind

aoyama gakuin 'goods'.... god, im fangirling my own school. guess i went to the right country as i fell in love with my school then...

i was shocked as i realized how big contrast there is in my hair O.O" there shouldnt be any XD the down seems nearly brown!!

see?? maybe i should colour it even darker hmmmm

Today there is a storm outside, so i just decided to stay home plus i think yesterday my flu got a bit worse because i went out sooooo another day at home....... but i took all out of it, i went to by some food (srsly, it was scary to ride a bike in that wind and rain) and WINE ;_;<3 when i was sick i bought a memembership for nordic tv and watched too many romantic comedies (tho friends with benefits was great, i might be in love with mila kunis aaaaa), so tonight i'll watch fast and furious and get a little drunk alone, eat pizza after a month fuck japanese pizza, tastes terrible, but well, it still is pizza and have a party yea.

oh btw i saw this on the grocery store and couldnt help laughing XDDD toilet paper with ocha flavor?!? (ocha=green tea) even the colour is green ;_D

the cheap wine i bought, but it's not that bad at all!!

And there will be my new buddy, i bought her yesterday and my life standard really arouse ;__; welcome to the family, i have wanted you for 3 long years and at last you're mine ;_;<3<3<3 lets live happy lives together~ i really needed something cute and fluffy now that my ruska puppy is not here D::: aaa i heard she's sleeping in my room every day how adorable is that ;_;_;;_;_;

she needs a name, now it's just howaito-chan (the white ones are called that way and i preferred this to brown)

she starts to learn my habits already ;3

I also heard my dad's bought a maasto mönkkäri, no idea what it could be in english but a picture is more than thousand words they say! I just can't wait to go for a ride with THAT!!!! wanna ride it in the forest, the model seems to be really good even in the woods!!! Okay i wont say it's the same as having a motor bike, one of my everlasting dreams, but anyway it's something XD aaaaaa need - to - go - for - a - ride .

Oh, sakura should be opening their flowers today, i dont know if the storm affects somehow, but anyway after a week it should be as its most beautiful!!! cant wait for that!!

Have good time and dont catch a spring flu!!!! (o ・,・ o)

12. The smell of the past

If i'd have a hundred different feelings during a normal day, today I've had one thousand and hundred.

And the strangest thing is not how many different feelings i have, but how fucking deep they are. Every single one. Deeper than anything i had felt for months. It feels like i had forgotten how to really feel.

I didnt even do anything special today, like anything. Just normal things, breath in breath out -kind of shit!! Well well. I slept for 14 hours. Woke up. Took a short shower. Ate. Ate again after an hour cuz i woke up so late. Sat around and talked with okaasan. Went out to buy the ticket from the nearest konbini. Walked around a bit. Came back, had a dinner. Talked talked talked. Watched the kouhaku (a music program they do on tv every new years eve that lasts for 5-6 hours). Came in my room and started writing this.

Hahaha writing that all down makes me feel as a sim XD

But everything i did had a spirit in it. I dunno, every little thing really felt something. I bought a nikuman in konbini and cant even explain the wonderfulness of its taste ;_; or how it fit in my hand perfectly..! Or how about the nostalgic feeling of walking into a used-record shop by our station! How you first have to tap the door before it slides open...!! Or how about the feeling you get to your legs when you walk on the yellow lines made for blind people! huhh.

I feel everything (...havent done drugs believe me).

How the people care for each other, how everyone is patient and tries to do their best for everybody, how the water taps in our house have to be pushed down, not pulled up, how it's cold all the time inside and how the weather is such a big deal in here.

How it smells in the air everywhere.

The smell brings the most memories of any senses, i've heard, and yes i do agree. The smell of the house brings me back to the time i sat upstairs in the third floor and did my kumons YFU expected us to do. Yesterday I smelled in the train air so many memories, today as i walked to the station I smelled the music i used to listen to back then, three years ago. I smelled the lyrics and aaaaa my brain just doesnt get all this i feel i feel -fuzz.

Even if i didnt actually do much, and even if the smallest things were the ones i felt the strongest, today happened many big things too.

Well, some of them were big and some enormous, some just small, but here we go:
1) I bought the ticket for the GazettE's 10.3. Makuharimesse live without any problems~

2) For the first time it really hit me how hard it even now is for japan to deal with the problems the tsunami caused. How much the people do suffer of it, psychically. The most of the Kouhaku was about it too, many artists gave their support to everybody... The pictures, the music was about it. They tried to give some hope for future and ppl are trying so hard here.

3) Okaasan suggested me to borrow otoosan's guitar for the three months i'll stay ;___;<3 i get to play during my lonely nights and have some own fun, and the gesture was so warm wwwww

4) I got a decision from one of the universities i applied in britain!!!!!!! dösjfdidofhdofhdcxm CANT BELIEVE I GOT ACCEPTED! To study drama and international relations in LONDON!! I wasnt excepting  this o____o they require an interview andandand aa wuttttt!? Cant be an accident, right?? XD i had received two different mails about it! Now i just have to wait until i'll get the rest 4 decisions and then accept one of the offers...!! So the monologues i'll have to do from now on dont have to be perfect, i already got the place i desired the most ;__; guess i'll just do and send them in anyway, but no pressure about getting in anymore~! How crazy is that....!!!

Huuuuhhh. My day in a nutshell. In a big nutshell XD

Tomorrow we'll go to koenji with otoosan (dont remember translating this before, host dad), together by bike to see the shootengai there (i dont know the word in english but it's a kind of a long alley near the station with a lot of little shops there, we live in one too, but in koenji it's said to be really big) and the nekotalo i'll live from March on :333

I'm just sorry for the fact my iPhone doesnt work >____________________< thought i could be in touch with all through whatsapp and send free messages etc, use twitter.... D::: apparently there are no free Wi-Fi's nearby, and even while walking around some of the free ones asked for a code or sth, so sorry for those i promised to text as soon as i'd get here :/// and twitter WHY Y U NO WORK?!?


Here still a couple of pics for ur entertainment~ it was cold outside (the wind is freezing!) so i wasnt out for too long.

so nostalgic XD no wonder i gained weight during my exchange year lolz

especially this one!!!!!!

Our street~

Oh i guess i'll have to change the timezone so that the posts will be in right time with me. have to do it someday, right now im just too lazy...

seeya again everyone  (   * ,,・  」・,,)~~ hope you'll have a good day all!

8. Working, vampires and volunteering

A while's passed since my last post again, it's been busy-busy days (mostly). I started writing this in Wednesday night but was too tired to add the photos etc then, so dont be confused if I'm writing like it would be Wednesday lol. Here we go~

I've started doing those substitutions for schools and I really have to say I actually do enjoy of it!! You are the authority, the work is irregular and it's nice to talk with the teenagers (and who would have believed that). Even the salary is good so I can say I'm happy with my current job!

Thinking of it more I must be crazy to go back to school even after graduating...

The only minus side is that you only get the offers in the same morning or if your lucky the night before. Today I didn't have any offers, so I decided to stay home and wind down a bit for a chance. The weather was the most beautiful so I took a long drive and then just stayed at home, watching................ Vampire Diaries.

So we got to the next topic of the post. I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS HAPPENED BUT I'M ALL CRAZY ABOUT THE SERIES AND ANDANDANDand ;__________;

I never planned it to go like this, even my mom thinks it's weird I like the series XD We've watched the first and second seasons now with Kukka and Iris, today 10 episodes...................... T______T ten episodes of teen drama...... Yes I must have become lunatic.

But as we just finished the second season I decided to wait a little before progressing to the third one. Need to slow down a little bit lol ::__D I'm becoming pathetic. (note from friday: i already am impatient and feel like i should watch more XD have----to----keep on----------fighting)

However, on Saturday I took the 6:30am train and headed for Jyväskylä, where this year's YFU exchange students had their mid-year orientation!!

I was one of the 4 volunteers so I had a big part there, I leaded some workshops and so on but regardless of responsibilities, those kind of orientations always make me happy to be there ;3 I'm still on a great mood after four days, amazing  to see how the students have made so much progress both in their Finnish and with their personalities!

The cottage was in the middle of the forest and we even had to cook for ourselves :__D traditional finnish food....

Hahaha two of the girls love finnish metal so we dressed Sora and Scott like fans and even got them to try make-up and styled their hair : D

It's freaking cold these days, in Jyväskylä it was -30 degrees but here in Helsinki region it's not quite that bad... Still freezing.

The weekend will be busy cuz my schedule is filled with partying yey \o/ today I should have been in DTM opening party but was too lazy to get my ass out of the house...... well maybe it's just good cuz tomorrow I'll have to work again!! need to make as much money as possible!

Oh, I have done something useful even today, I called around different companies to get a travelling insurance and ordered some contact lenses for the trip~

And everything from here on is written on Friday:

They sent me an invite for an interview/audition from one of the schools I applied in Britain ;_;<3<3 that's a good news, but the bad news is, that I'll be in Japan at the very time... But I'll send them a mail and ask if it would be possible to do that through the skype or something XDD............ We shall wish for the best!

The schools I applied for were all drama/international relations, this one would be in Wales and the course is called Theatre, Television and Perfofrmance ('*w*') sounds so exciting!!

Today I shoulda worked again but in the morning I didnt feel well at all so I stayed in bed D::: but I'm better now thank god and after the post I'll start choosing clothes for the night, we'll go check out the new DTM today and before that go to Erica's for starters once again heha. So jealous for those who live right in the city center!

I  love the song and the melody is just my mood right now! Tonight we gonna dance dance dance~ you can ignore the video if you like, i didnt watch it XD

Have a great weekend you all~~☆ not even 2 weeks and I'll be back to Japan!!!!!