30. Time for this blog to be updated.....

Sooo as i think u might have noticed i've been extremely lazy and unproductive in what comes to running this blog. I have no excuses.

And i had this wonderful idea of showing off all this cool stuff i've bought during last 3 months or so, but i just got an inspiration out of the blue and just had to get this post done :___D anyway, i've got a deadline approaching next morning (the report which i've barely started), so i dont use time to take any new pictures now. As it's been so long, i just write anything that comes to my mind that i've been up to lately!! Please enjoy.

So it's been nearly a month. Which means a lot of action, a lot lazying around and a lot of school. I've been quite unsocial, to be honest, and the nights spent out sitting in a pub discussing basic stuff and politics might not be the ones you're particularly interested in :D

Well as i said i went sky diving!! It's probably been the most amazing thing in this month!! but it really was amazing O.O" I mean, i was scared to death and shitting myself when the plane took off, but it was worth it :__D

We took a bus to this military base in 90 minutes drive away from Kingston, it was somewhere near Stonehedge (apparently u could've seen it up from the air but i didnt know that before it was too late XD). The journey started 6:30 saturday morning, but i slept for the whole time so it was ok. The ppl were amazing and the atmosphere in society was great. I think it helped we all were in the same situation and gonna do something none of us had done before, so it was easy to bond :33

First we had this ground training for 6 hours, they told us how to jump (the landing pattern, rigth jumping position etc) and how to change to the spare canopy in case the main one wouldn't work... it seems 1 in every 700 has a malfunction so we just had to hope and pray it wouldn't be any of us :_D on that day we couldn't jump (it was dark when we finished), so we headed back to leave our stuff in the barracks where we were supposed to sleep that night, in sleeping bags with tens of rndm ppl.

The most amazing part of the trip, at least for me, comes next. We walked back to the jumping centre, and the stars just...... lsdjlksajld *www* it was the most beautiful starry sky i've ever seen in my life, just left me breathless. We could see the milky way and all these fancy star-figures i couldn't recognise. Then we went to bar and had a great night there, but at some point during the night me and some guys went out and just looked to the space and into the stars, we were all a bit drunk so it all seemed even more amazing than before, we talked about life and i seriously was wondering why i'm studying politics when there's the whole amazing sky above us and ppl seem so small and meaningless.. Then there was a shooting star. Whooooommm. The perfect night created.

the training place

some bad-ass military plane *www*

this was the baby we jumped from~ (see the sexy coveralls we used<3)

sky full of jumpers~

going to the plane

hahahaha this happened when we went back to the pub after having seen the shooting star, all amazed by the beauty of the galaxy... this dude drinking beer from a shoe. welcome to england.

oh god it was so beautiful on the jumping morning ;; but cold, see the snow on the roof tops!!

then this plane because u just have to love planes and it's so top gun B)

then there are us in the plane...

...aaaand off we go!!

Then what have i been doing...? I've made some new friends and been to movies and stuff like that but i think that's it :__D pretty boring things lately.... BUT OH WAIT!

I did do something. This saturday i went to see jason mraz at the O2 arena!! It was quite extempore, i only booked the tickets the night before the show hehe. I really love his music and lyrics, but i didnt have any bigger expectations for the gig, however, i can say it made it to the TOP5 of all the lives i've ever been to, and i've been to some real kick-ass concerts so thats pretty well :DD

Though, it was pretty lonely there :___D the whole place was full of couples from every continent, nearly all the songs and speeches were about love on some level and there even was a proposal during the concert.... then there was me, awkwardly trying to enjoy the night amongst all those lovers. Well there was two empty seats right behind me and it gave me some hope; i kept on imagining it was booked by some couple who had had a terrible brake-up just before the night and now were crying their eyes off somewhere... Might be horrible, but we dont know if that was what had happened for real so i can keep my vision :_D

Note to self: do not go to these kinds of events on the days when you feel alone and miss someone.

outside

and in.

had a good view

Goooood it looked so wonderful when all these ppl were holding their phones up to the music ;; these kind of moments i really feel the awesomeness of the life

But musically and on every other level it was amazing and gets the iruze-approves stamp. Go if u have a chance and like his music.

Yepp. Then here's a perfect metaphor about the kind of life i lived in november....

Drinking my tea from this on computer....

...on the table that looks like this...

...in this mess i call my room. Mom, if u read this i do apologise.

Kingston Christmas market :33

On my way to school, leaves everywhere.

hahaha ok one day i went to walk around this cemetary, it's located _right _next to _our halls. you can see the building in the end of that path. im sure i couldn't sleep if i had a room facing this way just saying..

the clayhill cat :333 he lives on the campus and belongs to no-one so i took him up to keep me some company, he was so needy and happy to get some love ;;<3

hahaha then earlier today there was this incident when i passed the fire extinguisher.... it just fell from the wall and the alarm went off. now it's left this way.. for our luck we eat a lot of pizza in this flat and are lazy to clean so we had some pizza boxes we could use. i dont know if i should laugh or cry. i really should try and be more hardworking.

Also, sorry for the lack of self-pictures lately, next post will consist of them i promise. But while waiting here u have one! I dont prove-read this post to save some time this time, so please ignore the possible typos!! Oh, and happy December~ :33

24. Kapibara-san and a trip to Korea

Yesterrrrrday was great~<3

I made it out of house after the flu and it was nearly 20 degrees o(*,*)O' went to visit the school again with my ex area rep, she had to be there with her new exchange student and her host family~ it was so very nostalgic to listen how the principal told about the clubs and bunkasai and school trip and all :DD

They also took the sizes of the school uniforms for the two students and we waited in the school store (yep our school has its own store, there were even aoyama gakuin hello kittys O.O" i bought three pens and a hand towel ;3), i talked with the new teacher for an hour or so about how the world has become crazy and about the money situation etc, freedom and human rights... So i guess im a better person now haha

a boring-me-to-death look but i slept in late and had to run >,<

from the school shop!!

Annnnnnywayyy, after the school part we had a lunch with my area rep (soe-san from now on) and her son's wife who is now staying at their place because she has a 7-months-old baby and her own parents work so it's easier that way, it was some fancy sobayasan in omotesando. They were planning a trip to Thailand on Golden Week so we also went to the travel agency to book the right trip with the guided sightseeing and stuff, as you may know japanese love those kind of things..... I even heard there are Europe trips with 4 countries where you stay 2 days in each and see EVERYTHING with super schedule and then are dead in the end of each day ;__D but many ppl only book the travel with flights and hotel, so that there will be a guide that takes everyone to the hotel and after that you're on your own. Many times you might spare some money with those kind of 'package-trips'.

So what i had forgotten to announce here is, that i booked a trip to Korea about a month ago!! I'll fly from Osaka to Seoul on 30th April, and then come back to Japan on 7th May. Gonna be so greatttttttt~ The flights are from osaka, so after having returned to Japan i thought id also check out kansai a bit before returning to tokyo!! have never been there before, so will be interesting!! So it would be two weeks of travelling around and having some crazy time alone, and then back to Finland on 16th May.

At first i really didnt have any purpose to travel, but then i found this amazing blog that gave me some inspiration and made me wanna travel so badly, to take everything from these 3 months. So i booked the flights from the korean cheap flight company (that's the reason you cant go from tokyo) and a friend that made her exchange to korea told me a great youth hostel in the seoul center in the best place possible, or that's what she says, i dont have the slightest idea of anything that has something to do with korea, so it will be fun to see how it differents from japan! I have this image that koreans are more lively and vibrant, and the language sounds so exotic, i love it!! i wonder if i should learn the hangul marks before going hmmm.

So that's the news from here! One of the other reasons of taking off is that lately i've become more and more sure i'll go to kingston to study that fucking expensive course, so once i'll be there i wont have any money to travel for a while! So now i'll just have to take every opportunity i have, and yeah, it's much cheaper to travel to asia from here than from finland. I only paid 250 euros for the flights, and the hostel will be about 80 euros for a week, including breakfast O.O cheap!!

Yesterday i just got some travelling fever (i dont know if you can say that in english?!?) in that travel agency, and the wife of soe-san's son was kind and gave me a guide book, so i guess i should start planning a bit :DD 7 days of seoul!! i want to meet some friends too, so i hope you'll make have some time for me then ;) be prepared for giving me some guidance~

Oh i also got an invitation for dinner some day and an old phone she didnt need anymore that you can WATCH TELEVISION WITH ;__;<3<3 god bless you-i-dont-remember-your-name-but-yeah and your baby (  ´,`)~

some korean beer we got from the travel agency!! how kind :3

the phone and the guide book from the year 2000 but well the gesture was kind

aoyama gakuin 'goods'.... god, im fangirling my own school. guess i went to the right country as i fell in love with my school then...

i was shocked as i realized how big contrast there is in my hair O.O" there shouldnt be any XD the down seems nearly brown!!

see?? maybe i should colour it even darker hmmmm

Today there is a storm outside, so i just decided to stay home plus i think yesterday my flu got a bit worse because i went out sooooo another day at home....... but i took all out of it, i went to by some food (srsly, it was scary to ride a bike in that wind and rain) and WINE ;_;<3 when i was sick i bought a memembership for nordic tv and watched too many romantic comedies (tho friends with benefits was great, i might be in love with mila kunis aaaaa), so tonight i'll watch fast and furious and get a little drunk alone, eat pizza after a month fuck japanese pizza, tastes terrible, but well, it still is pizza and have a party yea.

oh btw i saw this on the grocery store and couldnt help laughing XDDD toilet paper with ocha flavor?!? (ocha=green tea) even the colour is green ;_D

the cheap wine i bought, but it's not that bad at all!!

And there will be my new buddy, i bought her yesterday and my life standard really arouse ;__; welcome to the family, i have wanted you for 3 long years and at last you're mine ;_;<3<3<3 lets live happy lives together~ i really needed something cute and fluffy now that my ruska puppy is not here D::: aaa i heard she's sleeping in my room every day how adorable is that ;_;_;;_;_;

she needs a name, now it's just howaito-chan (the white ones are called that way and i preferred this to brown)

she starts to learn my habits already ;3

I also heard my dad's bought a maasto mönkkäri, no idea what it could be in english but a picture is more than thousand words they say! I just can't wait to go for a ride with THAT!!!! wanna ride it in the forest, the model seems to be really good even in the woods!!! Okay i wont say it's the same as having a motor bike, one of my everlasting dreams, but anyway it's something XD aaaaaa need - to - go - for - a - ride .

Oh, sakura should be opening their flowers today, i dont know if the storm affects somehow, but anyway after a week it should be as its most beautiful!!! cant wait for that!!

Have good time and dont catch a spring flu!!!! (o ・,・ o)

23. 11 facts challenge

Good morning, good day, or whatever every one of you are having right now!! here i am again, as promised with this blog challenge i was tagged in by cannibalcoast as i think i already mentioned yesterday. Actually i haven't been sleeping after that last post as the night just.. vanished somewhere, and i ended up spending it all in MSN hehehe. But now im starting to feel a bit tired so i think i'll take naps after having posted this one~


However, i noticed im too lazy to do this properly so i'll mark the parts i actually will do with the usual blue XD sorry for that Orz if someone feels burning passion for doing this i still can set those 11 questions tho, take my word for that. So here are the


Rules:
1. Each person must post eleven things about themselves on their blog.
2. Answer the questions the tagger has set for you plus create eleven questions for the people you tag to answer.
3. Choose eleven people and link them in your post.
4. Go to their page and tell them.
5. No tag backs.
6. You legitimately have to tag.


Let's get the party started~

My 11 facts 

(wrote this ready yesterday noon, but dont think many of the facts have radically changed in the last 24 hours so.. XD)

1. i often hear i seem like the only child, scary isnt it... i have this horrible image of only childs >,<"

2. i hate my laughter

3. i actually have strong opinions and a lot of them, the perfect plans of how everything should be, but im always paranoid of what ppl think about me so i keep on pushing them down and sometimes i even find myself trying to please others. like not really please but for example leave my own thoughts unsaid and accompany to what the other ppl say. that's the feature i really do loathe in myself. but when it comes to speaking about feelings i have no problems.

4. i love driving and that's one of the things i miss the most from finland. next summer i'd love to make a night drive, just take off to somewhere and keep on going, listen to the music, maybe talk deep things if i had someone with me and watch the sun set and rise. would be nice.

5. i have eyeglasses i nearly ever use. i even use contact lenses only on the days i really do want to see well lol. im gonna buy new glasses so it would be pleasant to use them (those kind of with bold black/grey/brown spectacles), now i only have those old craps that make me look like a secretary....

6. food and eating are my passions. like really. really. really. i really enjoy different flavours and taste conbinations and eat all the time and yeah... gladly im not one of the ppl who fatten easily, id be doomed :__D maybe i should start doing some sports tho.... cant be healthy not to move at all.... but then again im too lazy for that..

7. ppl with a passion for something are the most attractive ones. passion for life, passion for a certain hobby, passion to be successful, passion for music, passion for themselves. i adore ppl with dreams that they really want to acchieve.

8. i love history and cultures and languages and international stuff and aaah. you got the point. something like that i'd love to do in the future. live abroad every now and then, travell... i dont need a big apartment, i'd rather have a cool car or bike, money for travelling and have adventures etc, live in a big old city... i love big cities. okay more than one fact XDD

9. at the moment im really looking forward to summer. i know it means my time here will be over, and i dont want that, but still... i love finnish summer and im sure this one will be the best one ever. i will make it the best. and if i will go to britain in autumn i want to do every single thing i have to do before leaving!! funny, i actually never used to like summers that much.. my favourite season is autumn tho, even still. then you can use jackets and dress properly, the smell of the leaves, the rains that fall and aaaaa  ;_;<3 darkness that starts to make its way back...

10. i have fucking small hands

11. i write poems and lyrics. lately not that often but i've noticed it always helps to clear my mind when im distressed or feeling strong emotions.

My 11 answers

1. If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

I'd want to meet a guy full of old wisdom, someone who would have been born in the worst conditions ever but then been lucky to rise, make money and been successful in his life, have been to many interesting places and situations and doesnt need anything anymore and feels continent with how his life was. Someone with great ideas and no regrets.

2. If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

Not sure if this means outside like out in the nature or out with friends, but if i really am out out, then im walking my dog, if im out like in Helsinki or so, then properly drinking.. not always in a bar but at a friend's place or picnic etc :D or just hanging around in someone's home, eating, playing...

3. What's your strangest talent?

Hmmmh no idea about my talents!! i dont even know any normal talents i'd have but i go with getting ppl to talk easily and tell about their problems when i want to know what's wrong :-d speaking of strange talents my lil sister, soon 17, can speak nearly any movie she has seen by heart and it really is fucking amazing O.O no idea how she does it!!

4. What was the last lie you told?

It must have been when i said i havent been having a boyfriend for a while. (i have never had one)

5. How do you vent your anger?

With music, going out and breathing some fresh air, with aggressive behaviour and things, writing, or then speaking with a friend. I really suck at venting my anger, when i really am angry there's no chance i could stop myself saying things i mean. but anyway i dont say things i dont mean.

6. What's a sound you hate; sound you love?

I hate the sound of nails scratching carton, the kind of brown thick paper >,< makes me feel sick; love the sound of fingers sliding on the strings of acoustic guitar that you may hear in some songs and the sound of rain and thunder. 

7. Smell the air. What do you smell?

Nothing because of this fucking cold D:: but im eating ice cream~

8. What's the worst injury you've ever had and how did you get it?

I really havent had any injuries as i recall...!! Once a dog bit me to my throat and i needed to take antibiotics. After that i didnt like dogs at all until we got ours XD my family only told me the day before like 'hey we're gonna get this puppy tomorrow', it was awful!!

9. If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

I'd proparly freeze and couldnt speak at all, im a terrible speaker XD but lets forget about that and play with the idea a bit. i'd surely say the life is too short to be sad and have regrets, and that everyone should try to catch their dreams instead of only putting up with what feels the easiest thing to do. oh, and that money is spent so wrong on this earth and that US isnt the whole world. that humankind should think more about the crap we have caused to this planet and all these basic things i think everyone should say.

10. What do you think is Satan's last name?

This one!! Interestinggg. I think it's the secret of this planet, the very information we need the most but only are too afraid to go and get.

11. What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

Some aforism that would describe my attitude towards the life. Im sure ppl will forget you after some decades anyway so i guess it wouldnt really matter tho.

So here we are, hope it was interesting to read. Aah im feeling so good right now, have such a comfortable position and just the right amount of blankets, stomach full of tasty yakisoba and an ice cream in my hand.. Even the fever seems to be gone. Feeling slightly sleepy and having great background music. Yesterday night i heard jason mraz has more good songs than just the radio hit 'im yours', so i gave it a try and what a great and happy surprise!! I'm totally in love with some of the songs so i'll hit you with one. This one even suits my situation perfectly<3 enjoy the rhythm and the jamming singing♪ im gonna sleep lol

Oh, recalling of while we used to drive and drive

Here and there, going nowhere

...

And it was time for all the wrong and lonely, lonesome reasons

...

But tonight we, sleep all, we sleep all day..

14. Words, words, words

I have done basically nothing after my last post, but i think it's still okay to make a new one, to get you all bored to the death.

Tho i was so tired last night i just somehow managed to get through it, and as a conclusion stayed up til 5am........ Not happy about it now, i feel hangover-ish and my head hurts, plus i think i  might be getting a flu, otoosan has one too so wouldnt surprise me >,<" So i slept til 12am, went to eat and slept 2 more hours.... And i feel like a burden today, just hanging here while everybodys at work (well, nacchan is at uni, okaasan at work and obaachan and otoosan and me here at home but yeah).

I dont know how this is possible, but i've managed to find a wireless connection that only lets me use blogger and google (i can google things but not open the pages?!?! XDXDXD hahaha that's so hilarious,,,) So i stayed up and read and read and read and read blogs, and everybody had something deep to say, everybody had had big changes in their lives lately so it made me think about my own too.

Basically im very happy to be me, i am proud of the things ive achieved (well nothing big maybe but still) and i think my way to see the life is really good. I am not depressed and normally am able to see the positive sides in everything. I feel like ppl complained a lot O.O I mean, its okay if you have done your best and failed in something, its okay if you lost something and it wasnt your fault, but i just hate it when ppl complain about every-little-thing and daily. Oh god if you're not happy with your school or life or hobby or something like that that you can change, go and change it for fucks sake! If there's something you could do about the thing that disturbs you, you have no right to complain continuously, not if you havent even tried once to make things better.

For me the year 2011 was really boring, not many things happened in my life. It was basically school and working really hard, in the beginning of the year i went to the school and had 3 jobs and two volunteering jobs..! Crazy, i dont know how i managed that, but my days were basically just school-hobby-work-sleep school-work-sleep work-yfu-jame-sleep.

I dont count last summer as summer at all, i had a one-week-holiday and the weather was awful. For a month I was in German (=school basically, tho it was a nice experience) and other time i had to take summer courses for high school so that i was able to graduate earlier (i made it in 2,5 years :--D). Once the school started again, i only had 1,5 months left (one period and the finals), and after that i started working in schools in order to get money for the trip.

Tho the end of the year was more interesting, i started going out a lot and hanging more with ppl~ And i was looking forward to my trip too.

But that's it. I mean yeah i graduated and stuff, but nothing big changes happened and i was really bored. bored bored bored. The two last years had  been great, 2009 i was in exchange and 2010 had the culture shock in adjusting back to finland, met so many new ppl and made good friends. 2011 was just a big hazy moment.

So this year i really am going to do things i've wanted!! I've already made a bigger difference in these 1,5 months than last year XD I started the blog i had wanted to start for so long :3 (it needs some big changes still but this is the first step!) I left for the big unknown even if everybody told me not to (i think too much what other ppl think about me, i mean im getting better every day but i really look up to the ppl who have a good self esteem). I got the university place in Britain.

So things seems to go pretty good~ I still have to find something useful to do in Japan, as almost the first half of the year will be over til the time i'll be back in Finland..!! And im a kind of person who cant just sit around, i need something to do. In the december i'll turn 20 and wanna be able to look back and think i have made a difference, that i have lived the way i want to.

I dont know why and maybe this is stupid, but i have the constant fear of not being able to live to the fullest and have 100% of the days used as i want. In the end of the day, if i have done absolutely nothing (this night here i cooome~), it feels like i had lost a day, lost time of already short life. There is just so much i want to do, and tho everybody says there is no need to rush, i'm afraid of not using every chance i get. I dont want to just run through the days, and i really do live in the moment, i think the small things are the ones that really make you happy in the end of the day, but i dont wanna freeze and stop moving either.

Ughhhh im sorry i have no pictures to post, i really should add more of them. Too many words, too little photos. I'm so lazy to read, that if the blog is only text i dont even bother to start reading haha.... XD i cant even link videos cuz im not able to use youtube!!!

I promise the next post will be only pictures :DD Have a nice day~

9. One week to go

Like it says in the headline, I have exactly 7 days until leaving! Actually this time next week I'll already be closer to Japan than Finland, whuuuuuuuuhh!!!

So what I've been doing pretty much is working, partying and seeing friends now that I still am here! Last two days I've been having this feeling I'd have so much to do, packing etc, answering mails and making sure I have everything ready for the journey, but always when I think probably, I notice there is pretty much nothing I could do XD an unpleasant feeling D:

The one-year-insurance I took started from today, I went to the dentist to get my teeth checked after work (I had had some ache in one tooth >,<") and did some bank stuff too! So it's been a productive day altogether~

Til now I was thinking of taking my own guitar with me to Tokyo, but I just checked the prizes from Finnair's homepage and it would cost 56 euros direction !??! Maybe I should just buy a new one there.... my budget would love it. Well I have still time to make the decision but I just cant stay 3 months without being able to play >,<

In the weekend I also started to think about the earthquakes and stuff, how I really dont have anything figured out for my stay, just hanging around and meeting ppl... I need things to do to keep myself happy, so there were some days I was pretty worried about that all :S also my host family hasnt answered to my mail where i asked if the day of my arriving would be good....!!

Now it's fine tho :DD I'm starting to get exhilarated, I just love the thought of myself, alone in my own apartment and own lazy days, own plans and own decisions! Well Tokyo is neither new nor unknown, more like a familiar home city, but I love it deeply, and I do count myself as a city person rather than someone who enjoys living in the woods, so enjoyment is guaranteed~

I guess we'll just let see what those 3 months have to offer---! Anyway I'm pretty sure it will be something more than i'd get by only staying here in Finland. At least I expect and hope so.

OH and I've already talked with some of my japanese friends and decided meeting days etc ;www; it is so absurd, I'm still in Finland but have done plans for my life in Japan!! makes this all feel like it's happening for real XD

The week has gone by so so fast, during the days i've been working hard (today i got a substitution in history and tomorrow in music :33) and every evening has been filled with dates with friends. Cant believe it's Friday tomorrow...! Not complaining tho :D My last weekend in here for a little while!!

On saturday my friend Jaana will have a house-warming party and then on sunday I'll hang out with some other friends, so i still will meet the most of my friends before leaving. Tomorrow i'll see Suski after a looooong time (well after a week i think..? thats quite something) and we'll watch moviezzzzz.

I'll make another post soon and put the pics from this week in it, i'm so tired right now ('' z ,z)
So good night now!!!!

4. Happy New Year!!

So the day before yesterday I went to Erica's, her dad had that pre- New Years Eve party thing and she had invited some friends over too ♪  I live quite far away from the place so I drove there and gave up the drinking for the night hahaha

It always is a bit awkward to be the only sober person among all the drunks (not that it would happen that often XD) that are having such a good time laughing at everything and everyone but I managed, like a master! No, it was a nice evening and I love driving, particularly the feeling when u speed alone the nightly streets~~ The look of the day!

Then there was yesterday, the New Year's Eve! In the morning  I went to the work (not to the school, I have been cleaning the office where my mom works for about three years now) and later the same day we gathered to Erica's again before leaving for DTM and the party night!! Cuz of the big night the tram I took to Tehtaankatu (aka Erica's) had changed its usual route so I had to walk for 15 minutes instead of two seconds to get there, but I walked with a random (but attractive haha) woman who was heading near the same place so it wasnt that boring in the end B)

DTM was pretty crowded as it was the bar's last day at Iso Roobertinkatu so I got across with many unexpected acquaintances, which was nice tho! Since I've spent the last two New Years in Japan I'd have loved to see some amazing fireworks, but nobody was that keen on seeing them and all just wanted to be in the bar so I stayed with them and didnt go outside alone D:::

For me the fireworks are the thing that really make the New Year's Eve, but well, I've seen them many times already XDD So what's the big deal...!

New Year's Eve outfit! I love the jeans, I found them at last year's sales (Ginatricot). A bit like horse-riding pants~ the only minus is that they dont have any pockets >,<" The belt was bought in Japan, 109 part 2 has an amazing accessory store at the top floor that sells belts, caps and bags! Pure love, I have bought there two bags and other belts too<3

At the edge of the year when the screens started to show the time till the change it hit me. What had I been doing the whole year?? Normally in the end it feels you've achieved something. Something that would have changed your life. A lot of new friends, a new relationship, a new school maybe...

I couldnt think of anything.

The 2010 had been great, I had just got back from Japan and felt I lived more than ever, got many new friends and became more like the person I had always wanted to be. The 2009 was even more fabulous, my exchange had changed every single thing in my life. But 2011 was just... months and days that passed by. Sure, I had had a great deal of fun but nothing significant had happened in my life. PANIC.

So that's maybe a good start for 2012. I have finished my school and have no idea about the future so everything is possible and I'm sure this year will contain a lot of traveling and meeting exciting ppl that will change everything~

AND btw I just got an email from my host family today!!! Havent checked it out yet but I'm very excited wooooh!! What will it have to say??!?

If I should make a promise or wish etc for this year, I'd try to be more true to myself. Not to care about what others might think of you and do what feels right for you to do. It's my life anyways. My big problem is to think too much and let the critique let me down easily so that needs to be changed! I also decided to start a 'book' where i'd write one good thing of each day for the whole year :__D So in the end of 2012 I'd have 365 positive thoughts collected yey

The night had its ups and downs but the overall impression was good. I had whole a lot of drinks but not too much and I left the bar and got back by the 3:40 a.m.'s bus with Veera. I got to sleep at 5 am but it was okay since today is a day off~~~ welcome 2012 haha

And here some pics I couldnt upload in the last entry, from the B-day party on the 29th!!

All the amazing presents (   ´,`)~<3 Some nail jewelry and nail polish (the white one is graffiti) from Oona, three earrings (Emma had made the red shoe - ones by herself, my respectfulness), the coolest ring ever from Suski (see below) and the movie Burlesque I had wanted to see for some time from Kukka! Note also the amazing cards!! (one with the girl drawn by Kukka and the other one with the drunken fox by Suski)

To the foods *www* From above: Oona's tori no kara-age (deep-fried chicken), me and Suski's sukiyaki ;_;<3 (yeah all the food for two of us :___DD) and then the half of the eaters!!

This day I've been just watching the Big Bang Theory (I just ordered the box with all the 4 seasons :D) in my pajamas and took the dog out. She was still scared of the fireworks so she didnt want to go far but started to pull backwards to the direction of our home XDD you poor thing!!

So maybe tomorrow I'll go and check out some SALES! Or then I'll just continue my new eat-sleep-computer-eat-computer-sleep-computer -daily routine ha